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❝ Fiction is the lie through which we tell the truth. ❞ - ALBERT CAMUS ❝ Once you tuck one secret inside yourself, digging out a little pocket to hold it, you'll find the pocket can be stretched to fit another. And another, and another… until you've got yourself a whole collection. ❞ - NOVA REN SUMA ❝ Sometimes the past needed to stay buried; it was the only way you could move on. And sometimes you had to dig it up, because that too was the only way. ❞ - ANN AGUIRRE ❝ Time doesn't heal as much as it buries things in the undergrowth of your brain, where they lie in wait to ambush you when you least expect it. ❞ - JONATHAN TROPPER ❝ I want to stop running away from everything. I want to find something to run toward. ❞ - HANNAH HARRINGTON ❝ I think I'll stay in pieces. I can shift them, rearrange, depending on the day, depending on what I need to be. I can change on a whim and be so many different girls and none of them has to be me. ❞ - KATJA MILLAY ❝ The moment you fall in love feels like it has centuries behind it, generations - all of them rearranging themselves so that this precise, remarkable intersection could happen. In your heart, in your bones, no matter how silly you know it is, you feel that everything has been leading to this, all the secret arrows were pointing here, the universe and time itself crafted this long ago, and you are just now realizing it, you are just now arriving at the place you were always meant to be. ❞ - DAVID LEVITHAN ❝ The world is full of monsters with friendly faces. ❞ - HEATHER BREWER ❝ This is not my life. These are not my cobwebs. This is not the darkness I was designed for. ❞ - COLUM MCCANN ❝ To my mind, an even deeper mystery than the secrets we keep is the mystery of the way our hearts incline toward this person and not that one, how one soul selects another for its company, how we recognize companion souls as we make our way through the world in awkward bodies that betray us at every turn. ❞ - JENNIFER FINNEY BOYLAN ❝ Humans need cages around their bodies - wombs, houses, coffins. ❞ - XIAOLU GUO ❝ …we chase after ghosts and spirits and are left holding only memories and dreams. It's not that we want what we can't have; it's that we've held all e could want and then had to watch it slip away. ❞ - CHARLES DE LINT ❝ …I realized that there was this other part of me, and it was a big part of me, that needed something outside myself to tell me who I was. And the thing that had been designed to tell me who I was, was gone. And so the second idea became obvious: I was very concerned with getting other people to say I was good or valuable or important because the thing that was supposed to make me feel this way was gone. ❞ - DONALD HARRINGTON ❝ Whenever she thought she could not feel more alone, the universe peeled back another layer of darkness. ❞ - JANET FITCH ❝ Because I understand all the ways of trying to escape, how sometimes you escape one prison only to find you've built yourself a different one. ❞ - GAYLE FORMAN ❝ Whatever made me the way I am left me hollow, empty inside, unable to feel. It doesn't seem like a big deal. I'm quite sure most people fake an awful lot of everyday human contact. I just fake all of it. I fake it very well, and the feelings are never there. ❞ - JEFF LINDSAY ❝ I'm always telling myself I don't have many feelings. Even when something does affect me I'm only moderately moved. I almost never cry. It's not that I'm stronger than the ones with teary eyes, I'm weaker. They have courage. When all you are is skin and bones, feelings are a brave thing. I'm more of a coward. The difference is minimal, though, I just use my strength not to cry. When I do allow myself a feeling, I take the part that hurts and bandage it up with a story that doesn't cry, that doesn't dwell on homesickness. ❞ - HERTA MULLER ❝ That's life for you. All the happiness you gather to yourself, it will sweep away like it's nothing. If you ask me I don't think there are any such things as curses. I think there is only life. That's enough. ❞ - JUNOT DIAZ ❝ Where you come from is gone, where you thought you were going to never was there, and where you are is no good unless you can get away from it. Where is a good place for you to be? No place. ❞ - FLANNERY O'CONNOR ❝ I am learning peacefulness, lying by myself quietly As the light lies on these white walls, this bed, these hands. I am nobody; I have nothing to do with explosions. ❞ - SYLVIA PLATH ❝ What I saw wasn't a ghost. It was simply - myself. I can never forget how terrified I was that night, and whenever I remember it, this thought always springs to mind: that the most frightening thing in the world is our own self. ❞ - HARUKI MURAKAMI